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11:49 PM Thursday, May 04, 2006
bad day.
As if it was not enough that i was sleep deprived, i had to endure a long long day. The moment i looked at the paper, i knew that i had failed myself, once again. I was distracted, so disappointed that i didnt even bother talking to a single soul. Or maybe, i was just plunging into darkness in my mind.

Yes, bad days do happen. And no, i dun like bad days.

I had to muster up courage to ask these days. I am always scared of people's perception towards me. Perhaps that is my weakness. perhaps. It has always been this way. I grew up trying to make people think that i was good but in fact i had so many insecurities inside. I realise now that perceptions are bull-shit. I spent too much time trying to impress people that i forget what's most important. Its hard to kick that old habit out but im trying and i know that it takes every inch of me to turn that old habit away.

Besides i think that proving myself to myself is most important of all for i sometimes or rather most of the time, i lack the confidence to move on. I easily get pinned down by other things and when i do i suddenly stop. My failures are caused by nobody but me. Yes, this soul who is typing this entry out.

Other than all this academic pressure im getting, im starting to miss this 87 person a bit. Haish. No prizes for the one who guesses right. Haha.

xoxo,
deen.
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